About

I have spent a great deal of time over my journey as an art major trying to find out what message I am compelled to search and display to the world. I used to be so torn between what was aesthetically pleasing to others and what they wanted to see that I lost what it meant to do art for me. I left university for a year to find out for myself if I was pursuing classes for myself or if I was following it for the definition of happiness posed to me by my family. I have chosen to come back and now I feel my work  is truly my own. I am an art major because it truly is something I want to get better at. In turn I am proud to say that my resources and my techniques are expressive and explorational which I consider to be an aesthetic worthy of expanding and honing in on, representational of how I as a human will always be. I acknowledge my thoughts, limitations, desires, beliefs and fears, all of which I will continue to imbue into my art.

I try to use these general ideals to guide my life rather than as actual rules so I can have a quick reference in times of stress. I suppose I should start with my desire to be mindful and the inherent pointlessness of it. I feel like my mind wanders in so many directions constantly, and with so many wandering thoughts it becomes difficult to act. With so many thoughts I get lost in my identity; I suppose I fell in line with the idea of “to do is to be.” At least that is a good precursor of “to be is to do.” My thoughts guide my actions and i dont want my thoughts to be random nor against my will. The beginning of all this is simply to consciously decide what ideals are valuable to me and to act on them. I don’t want to risk making decisions that I would regret. In the very least this system makes for a conducive way for me to think through my actions. If I choose to make an action that goes against my principles then I will have to know it was for a good reason.

The point of my laws is to function as the four general aspirations that I strive to be. The primary coding for life is not to be great , it is not even to be good. The primary point of life is not even to live I would say. I would say the point of life is simply to not die. In terms of living, our bodies associate negative emotions to death and positive emotions to getting further from it. We desire to thrive which means to sate the desires of our bodies, our emotions, our mind and even our spiritual nature. That sense of wonder. The issue with this is that in our desire to sate our desires we tend, and are likely to act in a self defeating manner to ourselves and to others. For this endeavor, I hope to translate the word of God, starting with my own truths. Acting in line with my laws gives structure to my actions so that in my journey of sating my desires I can be more aware, mindful and engaged that I am not acting in a way that is needlessly and/or recklessly counterintuitive to my will or the will of those around me. It is a clear hierarchy of what I will strive to be so that in any situation I dont have to be swayed. First I will list my laws because they are to be written in stone. They are as follows:

Laws: I strive to be

• Good
• Capable
• Respected
• Successful

Next I will list my principles which also are listed in a hierarchy but in which are guidelines for my actions that must fall in line with my laws. They are as follows:

I am/ my actions are

• Intentional
• Consistent
• Sustainable
• Connected
• Contextual
• Courageous